Been a while……
After a very long break I’ve decided to make one more post on this website, as it is the only place where I can post general ramblings. After developing social skills and overcoming many obstacles, it seems that everything has gone downhill once more. What has caused this?- I don’t have a clue. Feelings of insignificance are constantly plaguing my thoughts, my dreams and inhibiting my actions. The only difference is that this time I genuinely don’t care what others may think. At least I don’t have feelings of guilt to that extent in the same way as I once did. However, I’m glad that I don’t have a significant other in my life, as I’m pretty sure I would just be making them miserable as sin. All I want now is to be back at uni. All I want is my own space, where I can shut myself off from the world when I want to and make my own decisions for once.
Finally off citalopram, fuck yes!!
Feelings of worthlessness strike at random moments, sometimes provoked, oftentimes not so. Then the sense of being insignificant comes into the mix too, thus creating a terrible pool of self hate. Everything seems to make sense, cos at the end of the day you’re a loser, and someone who is unsure of who really cares. Anyway, rant over, goodnight.
go anon and say whatever you’d like to me.
- gay boy: hey man you look good today
- straight boy: oh my god man what the fuck i'm not a faggot, i'm pretty sure this is harassment
- straight boy: [slaps girls' asses as they walk by] [asks them if they finger themselves] [pleads every girl to have anal sex]
No wonder she deleted me off facebook, I nearly destroyed her life cos I was drunk. If I could turn back time then I would without a shadow of a doubt. If you read this, I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again: I’m sorry for the way I made you feel and for my actions.
Just as I think I’m getting somewhere, the girl I went on a date with now has a boyfriend and I feel like absolute shit. I guess I should have known since she hadn’t spoken to me in a while, and she’s obviously done nothing wrong, but I’m so frustrated right now.